I am going to apologize that this post is again more on the non-bookish side of things, but I really wanted to give you guys an update on how things are going especially since my last status update post was kind of a downer. I am not 100% back to what I consider my balanced/normal self, I have days where I am but it tends to come and go just as easily. I have accepted and known that this was a large part of dealing with depression, but I was on such a good run for such an extended period of time that when I crashed it was a huge shock to my system. I am working towards getting back to that same place I was, sadly it has just been a struggle to do so and it is mentally exhausting. That mental exhaustion is preventing me from fulfilling a lot of my more creative desires which include reading and writing, because I just don’t have the desire or discipline to focus. However, I have some good news going on as well as some goals in place that I want to share with everyone as a sort of motivation for me to continue to work towards them.
Library Media Clerk Position
I mentioned in my post from March 23rd that I had applied for a position within my daughter’s school district (also a district I previously subbed in), specifically a position working as a Library Media Clerk. I found out towards the end of last week that I have been selected to go through the pre-screening interview, basically a 5-minute first impressions based interview where I will meet the interview board and answer a few of their questions and the results of this interview will determine whether or not I will be selected to go on to the next stage. Since I have applied for the position, they have stated there is a second opening at another school site so I am hoping that I may be able to express my interest to work at either site in my interview and maybe increase my chances a little bit. Initial interview is on Monday, April 13th so please please please send me lots of good thoughts towards being granted this amazing opportunity!
Amazon Mechanical Turk
Since March 16th, I have been working from home for Amazon Mechanical Turk completing human intelligence tasks (HITs) which are valued at anywhere from 1-8 cents per with the possibility of bonuses depending on how many you complete. This is definitely not work that you can expect to do and make a living wage off of, but it is sort of nice for me because I am using it as a way to garner extra spending cash since I already am able to cover my monthly bills. Depending on the type of HIT I am working on will drastically determine how much time I spend working, but I normally will spend anywhere from 1-5 hours working. Type also will have a huge impact on the amount of HITs I complete because certain types will ultimately take longer than others to complete. I have been averaging about 100 HITs per day and will usually complete that in the previously mentioned time frame. My total, as of right now, is 1087 complete with a 99% approval rating (though I currently have 105 pending). So far, I have made a total of $30.43 – like I said, it is definitely not money that you can live on which is why I am going to be using it as additional spending money. This brings me to discussion of the first goal I have set for myself.
I wrote before about my body issues, about how I want to lose some weight until I reach a point where I feel good about myself. I am not exactly tying a number to that point, but I am tracking the numbers all the same just so I can monitor my progress. I am down 5 pounds from my March starting weight, which is a good start, but I need to adjust my plan somewhat. That 5 pounds, I honestly can’t see where I lost it, but it was from strictly just adjusting/watching my calorie intake without adding exercise to my routine. I have a lot of issues with exercising, they seem petty and I often receive criticism for it – criticized by people who are supposed to be part of a support system, like I’ve previously said, I really don’t feel like I have much of one. Anyways, I’ve touched on it before about how I was raised in an abusive environment and one of the consequences of that is I have since experienced constant problems with my back due to being thrown against a protrusion and my spine hitting it oddly in the small of my back as a child/early teen. I am always experiencing pain from my back. I have gone through physical therapy as well as seeing a chiropractor in order to attempt to alleviate it both before and after having my daughter, but to no avail. I know that additional weight exacerbates it, but when you’re already in so much pain it is difficult to justify putting yourself through more. My other issue is just not having someone to exercise/work out with – granted, I’d be highly embarrassed if I did because I am just so out of shape. I know that one seems silly and isn’t really a necessity, but I just am in need of that camaraderie I guess or feeling like you’re both cheering for each other. I am hoping to alleviate some of that by picking up a fitness tracker, specifically I am going to be putting my Amazon MTURK money towards a Misfit Flash.
Most of the fitness trackers out there are priced at $99+, which is just a ridiculous price for someone like me who is basically going to be starting up a workout routine basically from scratch. The price for this one is much more approachable at around $40 and it still comes with the same features and support from its Android/iOS application as the more expensive devices, which is where the real data comes from anyways. I am thinking and hoping that having something like this will help to motivate me as well as give me a more accurate way of tracking my daily fitness activities. My other idea is that if I do manage to attain the library media clerk position, my work day will only be from 8am til 1pm Monday through Friday giving me time to go to the gym in the afternoon after work and before my daughter would need to be picked up from school. It is definitely going to depend on how much a gym membership would actually cost, but I think it could be a good investment in the long run – just all depends. I am hoping to reach a “feel good point” by November because it is looking like I will be attending Blizzcon 2015 with my boyfriend and a couple of friends/former WoW guildmates! We actually attended Blizzcon in 2013, the same group, and it was an amazing time so we are looking forward to doing it again.
So yay having goals: Obtaining Library Media Clerk position, reaching a happy point with my body, and attending Blizzcon 2015 with friends!
I am happy, I am excited, I feel good having goals and I can only hope that I can achieve them and getting further back into the swing of things not only with my reading but with my blog as well. It is a process, it will take work, but it will be worth it.